distraction

when ive got something i really need to do in a short space of time i always find something else to do, like replacing my scented drawer liners , or doodling a dog.

got up, breakfast, pc, called my dad, called andrew, called suzanne, debbie called, washing,beauty bathed, photographed vince, saw anna, made soup, went to sainsbury's, called joanna, ate chilli, had a nap, called martyn, debbie called, sue called, had a bath, went to debbies, watched heroes, had a beer, came home, pc, drew a quick pissing stars bunny,bed..

work work

its saturday afternoon.. the wind is howling outside and the rain is splattering on the huge window panes of this converted car showroom i work in. its not pissing it down. in fact its more like someone is spitting into the wind around the corner, and its landing on the glass, but its still quite wild out there. i cycled over to asda at lunchtime and wandered around making a couple of phone calls as i blankly ignored all the produce in the aisles. i'd though i was dead hungry when i set off, which is why i went out so early. but when i was in there nothing appealled to me. i ended up buying some vegetarian ready meal which i can microwave later and eat at my super tidy
desk

i always find it dead weird working saturdays. the office is really quiet, and being here makes me feel like i'm in detention at school. there are a few other people in here today. my colleague paul who has gone home for lunch, and some other people who look after the local network. no one is speaking at all.. and its not like theyre busy. ive just wandered past them to the toilet, peeking at everyone's screens as i passed, and they're all looking at ebay, or some sports websites or something. . during the week all theses people seem dead chatty. i guess it must be the fact that they're all wishing they were at home this saturday afternoon thats keeping them so mum..

ive put my phone on ebay for the hundred and fiftieth time . im hoping it will sell in a flash. i was talking to martyn last night who reminded me that the new nokia N96 is now available. so my once super desirable N95 is realistally , in phone terms at least. just some trash from the past. its probably gone down in value in the last week or so. if it doesnt sell this time (i'll know tommorow as i only put it on for one day) , or indeed i get ripped off again by some moronic compulsive bidder. im sorely tempted to see what happens if i place the phone on my log fire, or leave it on a bar and see if comeone steals it or hands it in, or pop it secretly into a lady's handbag, or a hoodies hood. surely these things would be better than the frustration of people not paying on ebay.

anyway, im off to milk a pigeon.

*sigh*

im at work , its 01:42 a.m. and im bored and irritated..
bored because its deathly quiet here, ive barely had a phone call or anything to deal with, AND ive got to stay here until 07:00 am.. and im extremely irritated because i just got an email from a bloke who bought my nokia n95 on ebay...... the auction finished on friday morning , and at about 17:30 that very same day, i got confirmation that he had paid me via paypal which was great . then he emailed me to say he was expecting to receive the phone on saturday morning as he'd paid for "next day delivery" . i mailed him back to say that that was impossible, and that id post it on saturday morning.
well come saturday morning and im really crap and i sleep late and miss the post office, so i politely emailed this bloke again to apologise. saying that it would definitely be with him on tuesday.
tonight he contacted me to say that he didnt want the phone and he wanted a refund, his father needed the phone and he was travelling abroad and blah de blah..
i was fuming.. . i replied saying that i would refund his money . but im going to deduct the paypal fee of £7.25 and the ebay fees of £6. and also that i wont be able to give him it until its cleared in my bank.. i stressed to him that im not a mobile phone shop.. im just a bloke selling his old phone.

oh i could have just done with that £200. this was the third time i've listed this phone. twice people have won and then just not paid. i was really chuffed that someone paid me so quickly. maybe i'm destined to keep it.

work is such a drag tonight, the only bit of joy ive had all evening has been a couple of personal calls to martyn and to my mate joanna.

i think i might have a nap

xx

knackered

im living on literally 20 minutes sleep in the last 197 hours. im so tired, and yet so wired. but sensibly i did resist the temptation to go out to the pub tonight. ... instead , sue came over and we had a couple of beers in front of a roaring fire. its been quite nice, paticularly as its so fucking cold tonight. outside i could see my breath for the first time since last winter.
today i got up at about 11, which was really early considering i didnt get to bed until 8 after my second nightshift. i was disturbed by my neighbour's washing machine. when its in full spin its like being sucked into a vortex of despair , or something equally unpleasant.. the spin hadnt really got going when i got up, but i could hear it whirring and growling upstairs in a threatening manner. so i figured being tired was better than trying to sleep through it. all restless , wiggling my feet and grinding my teeth.
consequently im deranged now and the warmth of my glowing embers is making me drowsy. im off to me bed.....

work work work work

im at work on a long long nightshift and i cant do a drawing this evening because it seems that "paint" isnt working on my pc for some reason.

its not very exciting doing these nightshifts though i've brought lots of things with me to entertain me between calls. ive got my iphone with "juno" on it to watch later i rented it from itunes , and also an episode of a tv show called "breaking bad" that i also got from itunes this afternooon. its the pilot episode and was free , so i thought i'd give that a go.. i remember getting into "damages" in a big way because i got the first episode for free. which was great but cost me quite a lot to watch it on my ipod, paticularly when i could have watched it on the telly on bbc1.. but theres something quite special about watching things on an ipod with headphones on.. paticularly at work at 03:00.

ive added a picture of me taken on my phone at my desk. you can see by my natural looking smile and haggard face how joyous my working life is. i often wonder how any job could be quite as fullfilling as this one...

ive just realised i could also post a drawing of a desk doodle too!!! and there it is at the top, all blurry and everything. just to make things confusing.. but thats very typical of what i do when im sort of busy .. as in fill the page with crap !

its 22:08 and im thinking vending nachine coffee and a snickers bar

one line

saturday teatime. im boiling rice and griddling peppers to make something suprising and scrumptious, that will also involve a corn fed, dead chicken's breast.
today has been a wonderful day weatherwise, though i did sort of miss half of it by sleeping late. that could be partly to do with the fact that i was up until 04:00 this morning. i'd been over to debbies until about 01:00, and then when i got in i started messing around looking for fireplace things online and checking my ebay and stuff, and then suddenly it was 04:00.. anyway i had a lovely nights sleep and , the lie in was also a treat.

ive been playing with art-rage this afternoon. trying to do drawings with just one line. i did loads of them, here are a couple. i found it really satisfying, its kind of like automatic writing as i dont know whats going to appear on
the "page" until i starting waving my wand around ( btw i cant make that irritating gap in the text go away)

after all my doodling , sue came over and took me in the car to go and buy logs , coal and kindling. im all stocked up for the autumn now and i feel like a squirrel. ive cleared out a cupboard thats next to my fireplace and its now full of logs and a treat to behold when i open the door.. prior to this it had a mop in it and some old roller blinds, so its a lot better.
im listening to bowie's heathen at the minute. i havent heard it for ages. and forgot just how good it really is, paticularly the title track which really sounds like nothing else.. that was the last of his albums that i bought.. maybe i should buy the other two that have been released since.
anyrerd.. off to check on my griddles